TW: brief bit about eating disorders. At School I hated exercise. It was always competitive. Any team related sports made me want to hide in the toilets. Luckily, teachers randomly sorted us into teams, otherwise I would have probably been one of the people who was last to be picked. Even my love for swimming was dampened because of the focus to speed up.
In England, as lockdown starts to ease, the pressure to go back to pre-pandemic life can cause heightened anxieties. We are now so used to a slower pace of life, social distancing and wearing face masks has become our ‘new normal’. With little still known about what will happen once restrictions have been lifted, it’s understandable that so many of us are starting to experience ‘return anxiety’.
The pandemic has forced us to spend most of our time staring at screens – with meetings and social interactions mostly being done via zoom – leaving us mentally drained and exhausted.
I recently wrote about how always being connected to my phone is affecting my mental health. How always being switched on to current affairs is putting me at an all time low. As this is an issue that keeps on reoccurring, rather than just write about it, I decided it was time to do something about it.
Don’t know about anyone else, but the last year has been bringing out the angsty teenager in me. On the phone to a friend the other night, we discussed how the pandemic has left us in a constant state of feeling overwhelmed by our emotions – much like when we were teenagers.
Music has the power to influence and evoke emotions. There are artists who seem to manage to delve into your darkest inner thoughts. In 2009 Florence & The Machine, later changing to Florence + The Machine broke onto the airwaves. Here was an artist who felt as intensely as I do.
We are overwhelmed with bad news every second of every day; making it hard to know what to focus on.
TW: disorderly eating and bulimia.
I, like so many of us put on weight this year. It felt like one day I woke up, looked in the mirror and noticed what looked to me like huge, red, blotchy stretch marks, surrounding my hips and thighs.
Lack of sleep is my number one enemy. I also have a habit of getting hangry but this is easily solved. I am not however, someone who miraculously manages to function on a few hours shut eye; sleep brings out the best in me.
November saw England go into lockdown 2.0 and I decided to document this bizarre time in most of our lives with a very public diary! You can read part 1 here.